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A little life update
Mar. 13th, 2023 06:21 pmSooo, those who read my journals peppered with my life updates very rarely might remember that I'd lost my job at a school I'd worked for for years and I'd been very upset about the whole thing. I was unable to settle in my new job because of the overwhelming amount of work, new atmosphere, higher ups judging me and making me feel like I wasn't doing enough etc.
But lately I've actually settled in this place and I've come to realise what a great thing it was actually. I feel so motivated to try out new challenges, help out my colleagues even if it means working on weekends (only in cases of emergency!), talked to many people here and I've come to see that my new colleagues are actually so much more competent and driven to be better than most of my colleagues from my previous workplace.
It's also a smaller school and pretty much my hard work actually has been getting appreciated by my higher ups (yes, even the ones who judged me at first saying I'm not serious about my work etc. just because of the way I seem I guess), the people I work with, my students and their parents.
It's not that I need the recognition because even in my previous school, I could see the love and appreciation from my students and the parents which matters the most to me and I honestly hate tooting my own horn so it never bothered me that none of my colleagues or higher ups noticed it.
But I'm actually liking the feeling of being appreciated by those in the management here, it feels really nice. I started pitching in more to learn new things, develop my skills and in the process have met some people who are really interesting.
Without realising I'd actually gotten so far into my comfort zone before that I didn't try very hard to change things up.There used to be almost no opportunities for trainings, growth etc. unless it was to show on papers but like I said, I hadn't even cared at the time. My new school though,they encouraged us for trainings, workshops among other things and after a while I realised that I actually am enjoying things in a way where I feel like I'm letting myself come up with solutions, use my way of thinking which apparently is not old fashioned and boring (but I guess that's a natural feeling coming from those who are older than me.)
So I guess I've just been having this thought that the very thing/ place I was so against or wasn't happy with was the place I needed to come to. I don't know how long I'll be here but things seem to be looking up for now, so I guess that's what's keeping me busy these days.
But lately I've actually settled in this place and I've come to realise what a great thing it was actually. I feel so motivated to try out new challenges, help out my colleagues even if it means working on weekends (only in cases of emergency!), talked to many people here and I've come to see that my new colleagues are actually so much more competent and driven to be better than most of my colleagues from my previous workplace.
It's also a smaller school and pretty much my hard work actually has been getting appreciated by my higher ups (yes, even the ones who judged me at first saying I'm not serious about my work etc. just because of the way I seem I guess), the people I work with, my students and their parents.
It's not that I need the recognition because even in my previous school, I could see the love and appreciation from my students and the parents which matters the most to me and I honestly hate tooting my own horn so it never bothered me that none of my colleagues or higher ups noticed it.
But I'm actually liking the feeling of being appreciated by those in the management here, it feels really nice. I started pitching in more to learn new things, develop my skills and in the process have met some people who are really interesting.
Without realising I'd actually gotten so far into my comfort zone before that I didn't try very hard to change things up.There used to be almost no opportunities for trainings, growth etc. unless it was to show on papers but like I said, I hadn't even cared at the time. My new school though,they encouraged us for trainings, workshops among other things and after a while I realised that I actually am enjoying things in a way where I feel like I'm letting myself come up with solutions, use my way of thinking which apparently is not old fashioned and boring (but I guess that's a natural feeling coming from those who are older than me.)
So I guess I've just been having this thought that the very thing/ place I was so against or wasn't happy with was the place I needed to come to. I don't know how long I'll be here but things seem to be looking up for now, so I guess that's what's keeping me busy these days.