It's good to hear from you again, though reading this post was quite painful. I'm so sorry that you've been going through all of this: it sounds incredibly frustrating and heartbreaking, and I can see why you're so mentally exhausted. I hope that you're able to find the chance to relax and enjoy some things little by little again for your own sake, and that is quite a lovely and strength-inducing sentiment to have about being the you who you are now in order to have met your dear friends. ♥ I hope you have many, many positive things headed your way from here on out! *hugs* ♥